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After the 30 days and crying and desperate for release she asked me to show up at a salon in Brooklyn that she liked.  Mistress Clarissa told me not to wear anything under my clothes. There was no need; she had an outfit prepared for me.  I know I felt like hyperventilating when she told me this but I mustered my strength and prepared.  I showered and drove to location.   Mistress Clarissa was not there but the lady at the salon identified me from a picture Mistress supplied and I nervously asked her whereabouts but the lady in the salon said she would be along. We were to start without her.   She took me into a back room and told me to  strip “slut,” I knew better than to complain…  I removed my clothes and she laughed at my chastised sissyclit commenting on my sissy butterfly tattoos on my ass.

She explained that me hair removal was unacceptable and that I must have a complete waxing and for being so slipshod in my hair removal my eyebrows would also be removed.  I cried and begged no,  but she said enough and smacked me hard on my ass.    We proceeded to the waxing room and experienced an arduous and stinging hair waxing for an hour including a brazilian.   The salon keeper looked at her watch “Mistress would be here in an hour” she said and I had to hurry.    She pulled out  a hanger full of clothes that I was to wear.  A long auburn wig was provided with a Baroness special black latex sissy maid uniform with the word sissy diagonally written across the chest in pink.  I quickly put a bra on with my c cup breast forms and, my curly auburn wig and a very nasty fetish collar with spikes and a lock.   There was a modified tiny petticoat that was very stiff and held the dress nearly perpendicular from my hips.  It was at this point I realized that the dress was nearly illegal.  If I bent over anywhere my ass or my clit, although chastised would be exposed.  I asked the salon keeper where were my panties and she said none were provided and I began to get nervous.  I didn’t know what Mistress had planned but it was going to be horrible.

 
Transparent latex stockings were provided with a garter belt and I awkwardly put them on.  Then the salon keeper gave me a pair of patent black six inch platform peep toe heels that showed off my pedicure.   I put them on and got  a glimpse of myself in a mirror—I looked like a complete fetish tart.   She ordered me to sit in the chair and proceeded to do a manicure with long acrylic red nails and stenciled in my eyebrows with long eyelashes and plenty of makeup with blue eye shadow and  earrings and blow job red lipstick.   At this moment Mistress arrived and admired
The slut I had become my chastised sissyclit was screaming and oozing pre-cum.   She told me “ be a good girl tonight, and I just might keep you.” She proceeded to leash me and said we have a bit of a walk  to the tattoo parlor.  The salon keeper slapped me hard on my right ass cheek telling me good luck tonight sissy.

I was so worried to go to the tattoo parlor nearly exposed in this fetish outfit. I was terrified.  People would walk by yelling pansy at me Mistress would just say “you are—accept it.”  When we arrived at the tattoo parlor there were numerous burly hairy men and biker women in the tattoo parlor.  I was really sweating….  One artist said oh Mistress you are early is this the sissyslut? “  She replied yes and led me to his table and asked me to bend over fullyexposing my ass and sissyness.  I was humiliated….  Mistress ordered me to spread my legs and smacked my ass hard making the entire store roar with laughter.  She said that I was about to have my ownership tattoo put on my ass, ”sissyslut of Mistress Clarissa,” and that after we were done I would be tied to the table and sissyerica would provide sexual favors for anyone in the store.   The tattoo took almost and hour—the artist spared nothing in making sure I suffered.   After he was done he got up locked the door leaving 4 men and 2 women locked in the store.

Mistress Clarissa whispered in my ear you will earn your keep and two men came over one prying my mouth open placing a huge salty cock in my mouth and another rammed an even bigger cock in my ass.  They all had their video cameras out and were recording this event.  I was crying and gasping for relief where none was coming.  I was being raped and I never wanted to have a real cock I was just a fetish sissy crossdresser.  Mistress explained to me no more playing I am going to make you a famous transsexual sissy porn star and that I need to earn money for hormones and real breast implants—and that this was a good beginning.

@MistressRage

Not every person who calls themselves a Mistress is actually Dominant. Mistress is supposed to be an honorific used by women who were slave owners but, now the title is being used by nearly everyone who engages in BDSM on a professional basis including people who are actually escorts, prostitutes and strippers.  There is certainly nothing wrong with those professions but they are not the same as being a professional dominant.

A Top is merely the person doing the tying, swinging the paddle etc. The bottom is the person being tied up, being spanked etc. A Dominant is the person controlling the entirety of the situation. They are dictating who does what. The submissive is the person being dictated to. They follow the orders of the Dominant.

Most Dominants are Tops but that is not always true. I know a man who orders his submissive to tie him up and spank him. That is also commonly known as Topping from the bottom.

Services offered- A professional dominant woman does not refer to what she does as a service. Dominants don’t serve—they are served by the submissive. A professional Top, on the other hand, will refer to what they do as a service. They are serving the client by acting as the Top in a scene that the bottom requests, scripts etc.

What do you want me to do—This is not something you will hear a professional dominant woman say. A dominant woman does what SHE wants to do. Her website will explain her interests and those are what you can expect. Different dominant women have different styles of play and different interests. Some are very sadistic, some are interested in a lot of fetish play but are not sadistic. This is why it’s important for you to know the types of play you can expect from her so that you, the submissive, can choose to serve someone whose style of play and BDSM interests are close to your own.

Many professional Dominants will ask what types of things you saw on her site that interest you. This gives her a good idea of what kind of submissive you are, what kind of BDSM interests you have in common and whether or not she wants to see you for a professional domination session. With that knowledge she can then decide what kind of session she wants to plan. For example, it may be no fun for her to plan an S&M session when the submissive is unable to handle the level of S&M play she enjoys. She may also decide to train you to enjoy the S&M so that you can better serve her.

If a BDSM professional is asking you what you want her to do to you, they are a Top and not a Dominant.

Bondage massages- It’s a new “thing” out there now. Tie a guy up then give him a massage. This is NOT professional domination. The dominant woman will make you give HER the massage (if you’re lucky enough to be allowed to touch her) and not the other way around! There is certainly nothing wrong with getting a massage but it is inaccurate for those types of practitioners to call what they are doing professional domination.

Intimate Sexual Contact- Professional Dominants do not have intimate sexual contact with their submissive clients. It puts you both at risk for disease and puts her at risk for arrest. A professional Dominant does not have to rely on intimate sexual contact to make a good session. Her sessions are about you submitting to her will and training, not about sex. Many prostitutes who call themselves Mistresses will do a little bondage and S&M before having intimate sexual contact with you. This is not professional Dominance. This is kinky sex.

I am a dominant woman. Now you should have an idea of what to expect from me.

I am looking for a slave obsessed with pop culture and pornography. A slave that is obsessed with films, cartoons, anime, all sorts of geekery and a slave who can edit video like a fiend.  Tragedy + Time= Comedy so If you think you can truly be of service to me and can  add your own unique voice to mine, contact me.  Together we can fill this page asap with footage already shot and just needs a little digital snipping . All glory and maybe some guts.

Please contact me with a sample of your work through  link to your blip.tv, youtube, twitter, fb, channel etc. box whatevery. No direct downloads.

@saynine

Lately I have been giving a lot of thought to the idea of “Informed Consent” and the role it plays in BDSM play and negotiation.

I think a majority of BDSM players, at least those who participate in any heavy physical play at all, have come to realize that the idea of the acronym SSC “Safe, Sane and Consensual” was a good term to create spin against a growing fear of SM that was growing in the 80′s. However, to classify much of what we do as “safe” or “sane” is counterproductive to informed negotiation.

More recently the acronym RACK or Risk Aware Consensual Kink has come to better describe the concept behind ethical BDSM play. And this is the jumping off point for what I want to discuss.

If you follow me on twitter, or some of my play partners you may be aware that I sometimes engage in very heavy impact play, and other “edge play” that can result in very obvious marking of the sub or bottom. As empathetic humans our brains often trigger a response of sympathy towards the “victim” of such play, and anger or disgust at the perpetrator of such “abuse”. What is not often clear is the extensive exchange of information and consent involved in the prior negotiation of such play.

As a Dom/Top negotiating such play, the very first thing I try to determine in the motivation of a partner interested in participating in such play. Is there a deep desire to experience a physical play outside the comfort zone based on a kink? Or is the motivation to prove something to themselves or others. The latter is a warning sign for me.

Secondarily the type of play and risks associated with it are discussed in-depth. I do my best to assure the other person that while I am experienced and use best practices, there is always risk of injury beyond what was intended, and such injuries can result in a need for medical intervention and possibly extended recovery time. I find it interesting that some folks find such a discussion shocking yet are not at all surprised when a friend or co-worker is injured and misses work due to sports or recreational injuries.

Recently I began playing on a semi-regular basis with someone who was very eager to explore their limits of mental and physical edge play. Before our initial play date I discussed in depth the possible types of play we may engage in, including such things as spanking, paddling, caning, and slapping. We discussed possible risks and I suggested we play on a Friday so that they would have a weekend to recover before work on Monday.

At the end of a moderately heavy play session my new playmate expressed what a good time she had but that she regretted that we has not played harder, and after a few days when the bruises faded she was sad to see them go. I explained that for a first time of play this feeling of wanting more was perfect, but if by the next time we prepared to play she felt she wanted to take things further, we would negotiate for it.

Within a month we were in fact negotiating much heavier physical and psychological play. She confirmed that she wanted to take the level of play much further. Again I watched for signs that this request was based on anything other than a kinky desire to explore limits. As the scheduled time was established I suggested that a weekend would not be enough recovery time and that she should consider taking several days off, which she did. I also asked several times on several days if she understood that the sort of play I had in mind -heavy impact play, including paddles, canes, fists, and well as choking, and intense humiliation and other psychological play- could result in injuries that could result in a need for medical intervention. I made it clear that this was not my intent and I would endeavor to prevent this, but that I did need verbal confirmation that she understood. And she did.

The planned date came and play proceeded as I intended. It was intense, and exciting, but also fun and fulfilling for both parties. There was bruising, welts, and even a bit of localized bleeding. There were no injuries that required more than a bit of cleanup and some aftercare. Both were provided.

In a gesture of celebration of the play we both made some photos of the resulting damage available through several social media outlets, that day and the following.

There were of course the expected exclamations of shock, and some of envy. A wide range of response is expected when pictures like this are presented to an audience of mixed experience, and we appreciated all the comments.

What happened in the ensuing days is what is very interesting. A vanilla-ish friend of my play partner discovered the photos and was shocked and unhappy about them. This was an unfortunate outcome. However what I find intriguing are the “Kink Friendly” folks that in the following days expressed privately and semi-publicly to my playmate that they were concerned for her welfare and safety. And this is not the first time I have experienced this. I truly question the motivation of these folks, but more important I think is the point that other folks are not party to the negotiation between play partners and should not presume to know anything about what was involved in the consent to such play.

I think such inquiries serve to undermine the confidence that a bottom has in their decision to trust a Dom/Top even after the fact.

In truth “Informed Consent” is formed between play partners and is the basis of ethical BDSM play. I feel fortunate to live in a State where one person can consent to trust their safety to the skill and instincts of a partner or partners.